Tenacious
I want to launch a new phrase or word that is the theme of this article and what I wish for my life. After reading Oswald Chambers’ My Utmost for His Highest on February 22, I was inspired to become “tenacious.”
Tenacious comes from the Latin “tenax,” to hold to and not let go.” To be tenacious is to follow the words of Winston Churchill during WWII—“never, never give up!”
I am launching the TENAX Society for those who wish to be tenacious in their pursuit of the Kingdom of heaven.
You have to know me for the irony of this to grip you. I put the “Tim” in timid, pun intended. I have struggled with fear all my life. I know my mom meant well, but her parenting style made me afraid of everything. You know what I mean. Every mother, in order to protect her child, has said, “Don’t do that; it will hurt you!” I know she loved me, but although unintentionally, fear was her way of motivating me. Not in small ways, but in some very significant issues in life, I lived in fear—abject fear of punishment and what people thought of me. I was, in many ways, controlled by the fear to please everyone. This intense phobia came to a point several years ago when I had entered into a business project with some friends and a very wealthy businessman.
I had no idea what I was doing and soon found myself agreeing to things that I did not understand. I was in way over my head, and in my ignorance and maybe greed, the one member of our team I trusted got shut out of the plans. The weaknesses of the rest of the team were revealed, and the partnership was dissolved. We had agreements in place, but the family of the wealthy businessman thought we had taken advantage of him and came after me for a large sum of money which I did not have.
For almost a month, I fretted about it. I worried and was full of anxiety. I knew I had done nothing morally wrong. I was guilty of ignorance but did not owe the sum being demanded. Nevertheless, I was consumed with fear. I could not sleep. I lost 25 lbs worrying over it. Finally, the Lord was gracious to me, and I experienced the most precious rescue I have ever known, apart from my salvation.
I lay in bed paralyzed by fear, afraid to move when the Lord visited me, and I saw three large spikes of black oily substance removed from my body. It was like the Lord was removing age-old splinters from my near-lifeless corpse. Once they were gone, I was free! I could think again, maybe like I never had. I was free of fear. What had once plagued me like an unhealed wound was now completely absent. The removal of fear from my life that day has persisted in freedom from fear ever since in every part of my life.
I no longer worry! I fear nothing now! The enemy had used fear to control me and prevent me from doing what God called me to and being who God made me to be. My progress is by no means complete, but I am no longer hounded by the fear of fear. I am free. I have surprised myself with how bold I can be. I can now do what is right without fear holding me back!
I have asked the Lord to make me tenacious. This does not mean I will storm hell with a squirt gun, but I do not want anything to hold me back. I do not want to hold myself back because I am afraid of what people will think. On People-pleasing Lane is a terrible, fearful place to live. I still want people to like and respect me, but I do not let what they think or, better, let what I think they feel about me control me.
Join me as charter members of the Tenax Society as we choose never never to give up!


